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Wish I Thought of This One…

I saw this visual rant in Jeremy’s Blahg here and traced that it’s =xyphid who made it as posted here.

It’s another way of saying that we’re not just persons sitting in front of a computer using Photoshop.

In one of our conversations with our other colleagues, Myles brought up and idea… this made me think: will we get the same respect like what we give to doctors, engineer and lawyers if designers here in the Philippines will have board exams to be considered “professional” as well? There could have been debate on this for sure.

For now, while there’s no board exams required and we are dwelling in the industry, good luck to all of us. May we have that extensive and unending patience, understanding and strength in facing “challenges” professionally ;)


Kudos to =xyphid. Thank you for coming up with this and good luck to you too ^_^

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Posted by on September 22, 2010 in Design, Rants, Realizations


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When Twitter or Plurk Isn’t Enough

I was watching the MMFF (Manila Film Fest) 2009 by accident. Well, actually I’m not intentionally to watching really but more on “listening”. I’m busy typing away another blog entry and I miss the the sound of the clicking keys, hehehe.

And I dunno if it’s just me but the entire program/show was bland. The grandness of award shows is missing. Even the singing of Lea Salonga, I can’t pinpoint but there’s something wrong. I’m not sure if it’s the rendition of “Imagine” or she forgot some lyrics. I dunno. But the usual effect of Lea singing, her powerful voice didn’t give me the usual goosebumps :(

Plus the nominees, they seemed to have included ALL of the actors and actresses in the movies to fall on such categories. What’s the use of the board if you’ll just include all people “acting”. Sigh.

Anyway, there’s only on word that has been screaming in my head all this time that I’m typing. And I know at least one gay friend of mine would agree to me in this word to describe the winners and the entire show: CHAKA!

Oh. Wondering why the title? Well, too many words (and thoughts) to be placed on Twitter and Plurk accounts. :p

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Posted by on December 28, 2009 in Rants


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Banking (in BDO) Sucks

I have been emotionally harassed in the thought that I might go for my much-awaited vacation leave outside Philippines without money at hand.

I’m not well-off but I can say I earn enough to sustain myself and a few luxuries (such as traveling and vacation) if my budget permits. Tomorrow is my flight for Bangkok and by now, I should be relaxing somehow but I feel strained with the thought that my vacation money has to be cleared in 7-days.

Yes, you read it. 7-days. WTF?!

I earned that money from an extra job from a friend (let’s call her Friend A). Since she’s in Laguna and I’m in Quezon City, bank to bank transaction came to mind as the fastest and easiest way for me to get the money.

I don’t have my own dollar account. To preserve the money’s value, I had to ask a favor from a friend-colleague of mine (let’s call her Friend B) if I can deposit my money to her dollar account as a way for me to get my payment. She’s kind enough and gave the details. So, Friend A deposited the money in BDO Los Baños to my Friend B’s BDO Dollar account (BDO Sta. Lucia Branch) yesterday (July 1) before lunchtime. Since we were busy yesterday for meetings and internet was down in the afternoon due to heavy rains I guess, my Friend B checked her account online last night.

No sign of the US $500 deposited.

I contacted Friend A who deposited the money today if she can helped me to trace the “missing” US $500. It was strange for all of us that the transaction didn’t reflect immediately. As far as we’ve experienced in Bank f the Philippine Islands (BPI) any transaction is reflected real-time and we’re always advised if any transaction would be encountering any problems (ex. can’t me immediately withdrawn or will be charged of so and so). But this BDO experience of mine recently is quite, how can I say it… odd and stressful.

A few minutes later, Friend A called me up to inform me that my money will be cleared after 7-days. She was not advised of such “procedure” earlier yesterday when in fact she mentioned it to the teller that she doesn’t have any account in BDO. Today, she asked the someone (I wasn’t able to catch the name) in that same branch (Los Baños) what action can be done since the money is being expected. We were advised to go to the main branch of Friend B which is BDO Sta. Lucia and give out the details of the transaction yesterday in BDO Los Baños and ask for the money to be “cleared” by paying a SWAP FEE of around PHP36.00 (0.0015% of the amount deposited). If further problems will be encountered we have to notify Friend A so she can call BDO Los Baños.

Can you imagine the hassle and how time consuming this is for me and other people? I feel somehow ashamed that I even hassled and bother other people for this “new” banking system of BDO. I didn’t that such “clearance” will happen. If I had known, I would have risked of depositing it to my peso account in BPI instead, withdrawn my money and bought dollars. It’s a lot of steps but at least I didn’t hassled other people.

I have a BDO savings account myself. I got that because I was persuaded and advised by my boss to have an account there so that my salary will be transferred there electronically. Now, I’m really thinking if I still have to continue that or just close it and asked my boss to hand my salary instead or be it deposited in my BPI Saving Account instead.

I was disappointed on the events happening. I was thinking that BDO made a difference in the banking system of this country. Since they went beyond the usual banking system we all knew like extended banking hours, banks located inside malls and even selected branches open during weekends. All these were advertised and I even heard of it from some other people. But now, I am really, REALLY disappointed.

And sad to say, aside from this bad experience of mine, I’ve been hearing of “money missing” in their peso savings account from other BDO depositors. Another friend of mine lost Php1,000.00 from her ATM savings account. They just told her that there was an event of a certain time that she withdrew but didn’t tell which branch and time it was. And another incident was another friend’s father lost Php 8,000.00 in their account. No efforts was given to them to retrace the missing money as well. Both sum of money went down the drain.

Hard-earned and saved money disappeared with no valid explanation? What kind of banking “service” is that?

Now, where can the BDO tagline “We find ways” being applied too?


Prior to me posting this, Friend B and I went to her BDO branch. They did release my money but we have to pay the SWAP FEE. When I asked them why they have such process. The teller said because it’s not our currency and it’s being done in toehr banks. Told her, BPI doesn’t and it’s realtime to the latter. No reaction. Then they let us wait for roughly 15-30 minutes then I got my money.
Tonight I can rest well because I’m “armed” now and thinking that my vacation is just a sleep away.


Posted by on July 2, 2009 in Emotional and Physical Turmoil, Rants


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Lowest Point

Today has been my lowest point of my life: financially. A few days ago was just my pay day. My salary just passed my hand and I still owe a couple of thousands for my rent.

This happens once in awhile. But I get by. Perhaps that’s why I consider myself living on the edge, literally. If not for some people who didn’t do what they promised like this publisher promising to deposit their payment for this book cover illustration I did for them. I had to pick them up tonight.

I want to get mad but I can’t. I want to cry but I know tears won’t turn to gold anything substantial that can be converted to monetary.

Today I checked my wallet and coin purse to see if my money there would be enough even as for my transportation to the bank and to my work… I won’t even make it to the gates of our office…


Then I remembered saving this hundred peso bill with a UP Centennial logo printed on it. I saved that for keeping: as a remembrance that I was alive when my university reached it’s 100th year. Now, in desperation I have to use it.

Today is the lowest point I can ever have been… and wish this will be the last.

Thanks to friends who supports (and let me money). But I have to stick to my word to pay them when I told them so. I have to keep my word. Lesson learned the hard way, NEVER depend on others who from the start you have a gut feel is not to be trusted. Work will be work but really, believe me, some are old but seemed to have never learned from the years they’ve been living.

If tonight that person won’t still give my payment, they will be sorry for ever working with me. They may not be to work with other illustrators again.

I wish I’ll get by at this situation. This too shall pass… I hope. It’s my birthday month, not quite a nice way for a start :(


Posted by on October 3, 2008 in Emotional and Physical Turmoil, Rants


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Tagalog Naman Tayo…

Lunes na naman bukas. Ibig sabihin luluwas na naman ako ng Manila. Pag luluwas ako, ibig sabihin nu’n maaga na naman kasi tanghaliin ka lang ng konti o abutan ng rush hour – patay! Pahirapan sa pagsakay. Para kang sardinas sa latang di pa nabubuksan. 

Alam ko na naman ang scenario kada Lunes. Kaya madalas Linggo palang ng hapon on gabi lumuluwas na ako. Hindi naman ‘yung ang reklamo ko.

Luluwas ako kasi magtatrabaho na naman ulit.

Hindi naman sa ayaw ko ‘yung trabaho ko. Well, ako ayos naman. Hindi nga lang pa rin maintindihan ng karamihan ‘yung ginagawa ko. Para kasi sa “karamihan” pag nagtatrabaho ka dapat 8am-5pm, nakaapustura at yumayaman. 9am to 6pm naman kami kaso minsan extended pati weekends, no OT pay. Dati ok lang sa akin, ngayon…. Hmmm… sabihin na lang natin na pagod na ako at sawa na sa pagiging mabait… or rather, tawag ng “karamihan” sa amin – TANGA.

Simple lang naman e. Gusto ko ‘yung ginagawa ko. Well, basta naman gusto mo madaling simulan, gawin o ituloy.

Basta kung gusto mo.

Kaso lately, nakakawala ng gana. Sawa na ba ako? I don’t think so naman. Sabi baka daw kasi parang pagkain ‘yung scenario, puro pansit bihon na lang. What if mag-miki naman daw ako o canton. Hellow?!? Pansit pa rin! Ewan!

After 3 (official) years, makakapagbakasyon na ang grupo. Kung tutuusin, 5 taon na pala mula ng sinimulan ng boss mula pa nung soloista pa s’ya. Masasara ang tindahan ng 2 araw, pero 4 na araw kaming mapapahinga dahil pati Sabado at Linggo magkakasama kami.



Walang trabaho.


Sana naman nga. Bakasyon kami. WALANG MANG-IISTORBO. UTANG NA LOOB.

Excited ako usually kapag ganitong out of town, lalo pa kung grupo at talagang bibiyahe at bagong lugar pupuntahan ko. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi ako excited. Kasi kapag nangyari na naman ang naiisip ko, tama na naman ako s’yempre. Pero BAKA magwala na ako this time. So may God, mapa-kung anumang relihiyon ‘yun, forbid na mag-flare up ako at masagad-sagad na.

May sumira na kasi ng birthday celebration ko dati. Napatawad ko na ba? Ewan ko. Pero kung sa pagkalimot, obviously, hindi ko makali-kalimutan. Elephant ako e: may forgive but will never forget. Sa’n kaya nagsimula ‘yung quote na ‘yun? Swak na swak e.

‘Yun lang. Nakakatamad. Hihilahin ko na naman ang sarili ko sa pagbangon bukas ng umaga.


Pero sabi nga nila, pessimistic attitude ko strikes again…




Alam ko po na hindi naman ako perpektong tao. May ino-okray din ako kahit ‘di naman ako kagandahan. Nagmumura at malamang makakapatay din ng tao (sooner or later). Kung may mag ibang tao ayaw magkamali, parang this time I pray na sana mali ang inaasahan kong magyayari sa bakasyon naming darating. Sana mag-enjoy naman kami at walang mang-istorbo. Respeto po ang hiling namin. Na hindi naman naibibigay sa araw-araw na humihinga po kami. Pero kahit po sa “bakasyon” namin meron. Kasi ibig pong sabihin may pag-asa pa ‘di ba? *kindat*

Sana po ipagkaloob n’yo itong munting kahilingan ko. Mas madali po ito ah, kesa sa mga dating kong dasal na sana ma-in love sa akin si *toot* o magka-BF na ako. ‘Di lang naman po ako ang masisiyahan kundi pati ang mga kagrupo ko at mga inaanak at pamilya ng boss-friend ko. Kahit po alam kong pag-uwi namin at pagbabalik sa Manila, ratratan na naman po at balik sa realidad.

‘Yun lang po. Marami pong salamat, Lord.



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Posted by on July 13, 2008 in Rants, Tagalog Naman


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Back to Reality

A week has past from the trip and the “fever” that I acquired from it.

Posted my photos in Multiply and as days passed it seemed hard for me to sort out the photos and files for personal archiving and for re-posting to those other social websites.

Other projects wanted to outdo the other. As if fighting to get my attention, well, my priority actually… from re-doing a box diecut, re-sizing a countertop display and digging up archived file for a quite old project just to name a few :|

The Bangkok video greeting setup for the client seemed to be working since I don’t receive any emails, IMs or SMS from Gian on inquiries or problems on it. That’s a good sign Ü But I remind myself on each day that ends, videos to animate accumulates :-S

No word from Ten and I feel a bit sad that Put didn’t reply in my messages through SMS and MSN :(

A sign that everyone’s busy. Everyone’s back on their individual lives.


I have a couple to things in mind to blog. Both has something to do with Bangkok and my trip there. And some, well, quite personal. But I sort of lost the interest of writing them. I don’t know. Lately, I just feel being slowed down and held back.



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Isang Malaking —–

Fill in the blanks na lang.

Pinakakakaiba ang araw na ito sa mga nakaraang linggo at mga araw ng buhay ko. Maraming kababawang nakapagpaligaya sa akin, tulad na lang ng peanut butter spread na Ludy’s na nilalantakan ko mula pa nung Lunes. ‘Wag n’yong la-lang-langin ang Ludy’s, nostalgic ‘yun ah. Isa ‘yan sa mga pioneers ng peanut butter industry dito sa Pilipinas bago pa me Lady’s Choice at kung anu-ano pang brands.

Masaya ako dapat. Well, masaya naman ako, partially. Tulad ng pagkakasabi ko kanina, maligaya na ako lately sa ilang daily dose ng peanut butter at eto nga, isang project na isang malaking tinik na talaga na nakabaon sa lalamunan namin ang sa wakas, FINALLY final artwork na! Yahoo! Gusto kong tumambling, buti na lang di ako marunong kundi baka nabaliaan na ako ng buto. Hanggang cheer at high-five na lang ang nagawa namin ni Rio, ang aming accounts manager. I can finally say, I can move on na…

I hope nasasabi ko rin ‘yan at naa-apply sa ibang aspect ko sa buhay. Siguro ngayon, matapos ang isang napakagandang pangyayari kanina. Sarcastic na ako ngayon ah….

Nakakainis. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko at sa isang taong naku! Ewan ko ba… Ang laki-laki kong tanga talaga. Bakit ganu’n, ikaw ng concern, ikaw na mamatay-matay sa worry o pag-aalala sa huli parang ako pang masama? Hmmm… mali eh. Maling-mali.

Tanga ko kasi… gaga pa. May bagong definition ako ng katangahan actually. Sabi ko kay Gou, at ilang pang friends na di ko na maalala kung sinu-sino sila na kapag alam mong gaga ka na sa isang tao o bagay o sitwasyon pero sige ka pa rin, tuloy pa rin ang kagagahan mo, tanga ka na talaga. Well, eto pa, binibasa n’yo na ang isang blog entry ng isang babaeng tanga.

Defend-defend ko pa s’ya sa ibang tao, sa sarili ko at I try to understand ba’t ganu’n and all that. Tampulan na ako ng tukso ng grupo pero sige, take ko lang. Kung ikakasiya ng karamihan na pagmukhain pa akong lalong tanga at katawa-tawa da’l pa rin sa kanya, go lang. Masaya sila e. Tapos ngayon eto… ako pang masama da’l di daw ako nagtanong.

Kasalanan ko pa ngayon… labo mehn!

Nasabi ko pa dati sa awa at pagkakaalam kong hindi n’ya deserve ang mga nangyayari at ginagawa sa kanya, na kung maha-hug ko lang s’ya in the hopes that that hug will take all his sorrows and pain away gagawin ko talaga. Pero ano? Ngayon, ‘tang ina, kung mababatukan ko lang s’ya at sarili ko… Nakakainis.

Kung kaya ko nga lang ihampas talaga sa pader ‘yung ulo ko para matauhan na ako, magising sa katotohanan at kung makakatulong nga talaga ‘yun kaso ‘di ko kayang gawin, masakit na, ‘di pa garantisado kung effective. Nakakaasar. Hindi s’ya madali, akala n’yo ba? Pero aminado naman ako e…

… ang tanga-tanga ko talaga!

‘Tang ina… buti pa kumain na lang ako ng sandwich na may makapal na palaman ng peanut butter mas matutuwa pa ako. Kahit sandamakmak na langis ‘yun at cholesterol at least pagkaubos ko ng sandwich, me sisimutin pa akong tumulong palaman sa mga daliri ko.

Satisfied and accomplished.

Tama. Gagawa na lang ako ng peanut butter sandwich, ‘yung makapal ang palaman na halos tumulo na sa bawat kagat na gagawin ko, mas may katuturan pa at may mapapala pa ako.

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Posted by on May 21, 2008 in Rants, Tagalog Naman


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It’s been a roller coaster ride these pat few weeks. Again, I’ve been missing lots of chance to blog topics, events, happenings or even ideas that came to me. Sigh.

Perhaps it’s just all work for me. Well, it’s my life… I chose it then I have to deal with it. Just like a dear friend who ever one notices that he “kills” himself with work, his reason is so he has no time to “think”. That might have worked for him, for me it doesn’t. And I worry. Not just for what’s happening to me, much of what is happening to him… and where in the world is he?! Gahd! Even his boss-friend is looking for him.

I’m sad and shameful for being a disappointment to my dear friend and almost an older sister to me. Despite that we communicated recently via email and SMS, I can’t deny that she’s really angry at me. It is only to her that I am lost of words to say after I apologize. It’s really my fault not doing her favor which she asked nicely early this month. I have no excuse of being irresponsible again. I don’t know if she’ll be able to read this, I’m really sorry and I do fear you when you get angry. I feel really shameful, awkward and scared.

Though things can run smoothly with a bit of side trips here and there to entertain myslef once in a while. But it just hits my nerve when some people are so insensitive and irresponsible. He’s irritating!!! It’s hard for me to stay in the gray area. It’s just always black or white for me. I’m really disappointed on what has happened with the group. But it’s beyond my control and as part of the team I had to deal with it and respect the decision of our leader. I was just told to hold on to where I am, I wish, no I PRAY that God give me further patience and ignore people who seemed to think of themselves alone. May God keep him away from me because I fear myself of what I am capable of when I snap.

It’s a good thing that I have friends outside of the work circle. If not for them I might have broken down or snapped and give in. releasing emotional (baggages?) rants and raves to friends help a lot. And a few random or unplanned trips really, really helped. Ate Marj and Jose dragged me off my work seat and brought me with them 2 weekends ago to Subic to breathe non-polluted, stress-free and workless air. Sea breeze… aaaahhhhh… simple pleasures I suppose. Considered that as my initial summer getaway. A preparation or a kickoff of my getaways (hopefully). Not able to swim with them due to some “alien” encounters but I am relieved and hapy that weekend. And they were able to see my humble home in Bulacan and meet my Nanay. Oh! Onyx, their black labrador… she’s such a darling to comfort me too… which reminds me, I still have to blog that trip.

Time. Such an expensive leisure? Grammar. Argh!

The last weekend was my great escape to work and city-life that’s been so stressful and so much in rush. It was quite quick though and butt did hurt from hours of sitting in a bus. But it’s so worth it. Expect it to be blogged after I sorted that photos (and I wish it would be soon too). I guess me being from a province too much appreciated the scenic views of Quezon rather than my own place which now have flyovers, malls and fastfood chains. I was really like a tourist taking pictures of anything and everything. I don’t mind looking stupid. I was really happy at that time. As if I’m like a dog being unleashed from it’s collar chains.

Have you ever felt as if you are being chased and been running quite long and yet you don’t seemed to reach the end? Well, that’s how I felt the whole week last week at work. Lots of surprises, expected events that I should have been prepared for. It’s nothing for some but I feel it’s really tiring when everytime I get home there are times I missed brushing my teeth out of sleepiness and tiredness. The degree of being busy and ability to handle stress do depend on each one of us on how we deal with it. It’s one of those subjective topics. I don’t compare so don’t compare mine to anyone elses. No one will win.

Sleep was my mere escape and rest but somehow it’s deprived. Thank God the rush is a bit (take note, a bit NOT totally) over but I feel there’s more to come. It’s the life a choose, again I have to deal with it.

It was so fast. Unnoticed to me until it’s over or passed all these happened in less than 2 weeks? How many emotions have I confronted? It’s just as far as I could remember. And I am blogging aimlessly again. Just typing away whatever thoughts I have.

An emotional release perhaps.

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Posted by on May 19, 2008 in Rants, Realizations


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On Continuity and Restlessness

I’m a bit shaken with the things happening around me. Things that matter personally and professionally. Made me think again on certain situations that I thought only fictatious and happens only because the scriptwriter and director told them so…

It even irritates me more when simple stuff that should at least coorperate with you to ease up a little tention adds up and aggitates you more…

… itchy scalp. I’ve paid some shiny, gloss thing to be done on my hair and paid quite a lot for such treatment. I’ve forever believed that no one or nothing should be done to my hair––EVER! But being so vulnerably clueless and illogical lately, this famous parlor made me do so. Now, I suffer for it… wounded scalp AND pocket. Unsolicited advice: Stick to your gut feeling!
… bruises springing out of nowhere? There’s this quite big one on my right arm that’s irritates me for weeks.
… this weird type of zit appears of all places, on my nape? Since now I have shorter hair, it’s visible I bet, I get to scrape, hit or touch it accidentally… ARGH!

I guess the stress is manifesting in some way or another. Specially the itchy scalp. I go such state when I think to much… is my brain cells falling out?

Hahaha. Cartoons… I think I’ve watched to much cartoons…


Today, I am meeting up with Jose. It’s been quite sometime since we’ve seen each other. We hardly chat or exchange SMS messages. Mostly, he’s the one initiating. Like this meet up.

I feel he’s quite happy… because he never watch movies in Tagalog! Hihihi. Really. He hates the plot. The very predictable plot. Which up until now, I wonder why I’m still such a sucker for Filipino mushy love story, specially the tragic ones. I don’t know. I’m such a hopeless romantic, I guess.

2 movies (one Tagalog movie: take note) + Jose + plus his treat = Should not pass this one up.

Jose’s gearing up with his tinted glasses aka sunglasses and I’m bring quite an absorbent hanky. (My beach towel is huge to fit in my bag) ;)


It’s a Thursday. A holiday. Tomorrow is a Friday and there’s still work. PGMA can’t do her thing in moving holidays here and there this time. It’s Labor Day. She will definitely be like banging herself on spiky, solid wall… or she has another plan in mind?

I remember an old taxi driver who seemed quite intellectual based on his comments saying, “PGMA is really an economist”.  I won’t expound on it anymore, check the dictionary and the news.

Going back today being a holiday and tomorrow still a workday, a lot of people might be heading somewhere today. They might have filed a work leave to enjoy the long weekend. Good for them. I envy them. My getaway will just be 2 movie dates, a hearty meal with a good friend, Jose. Thanks to him, I might be working again today despite the holiday. Well, I did bring home some work and plan to do it tonight AFTER the movie date because it’s deadline is tomorrow, Friday.

Welcome to a more vicious reality… it does bite.


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“Can you please be quiet?”

I really wish I can yell at the “boys” beside and behind me right now…

I’m in a internet shop right now, in one of the biggest mall in my province. I won’t be mentioning which mall that is ’cause I don’t intend to advertise them. I know, I know this is a public place. But naman! have a little respect with the other people in the room!

Calling them all BOYS despite the fact that 2 of the 3 are really quite grown ups and I’m sure they have armpits hairs already because they are really, REALLY annoying. I came in way ahead of them in the intention of sending some files for my side projects and to just hangout and supposedly blog another topic. But then came in these 3 boys. Overhearing what they are to do here (yup, they are speaking really quite loud), they are to play some internet/online game: counterstrike or dota-something. Who cares? The kid (the youngest I mean) is quite… ARGH… is there a heavier word that “annoyance” itself?

The older boy beside me is cute pa naman ata (I think) but with what he is doing, he isn’t anymore! Do you have to announce every move and every reaction you will do in such games? I never got hooked up in such interactive games. Thank God I’m not a gamer, ’cause if I am, I’m sure I’ll be much annoyed with how they play! But as far as I know, these games are suppose to be strategical. Game of tactics. And having tactics means keeping it to oneself until you apply it.


I have been know as being masungit. Even Jose crowned me as Miss Minchin, the strict and mean mistress of Princess Sarah. I am, I know… at a right place at a right time… well, most of the time. Perhaps now, it’s a right time to hold my temper. It is a public place. I am in a public place. Reminding myself over and over again. I had worst times…

To Emil, Omeng and Jelo… or whatever their names are… I pray that I won’t be encountering you again… EVER.

Sayang “kuya” Jelo, cute ka pa naman yata…

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Posted by on April 6, 2008 in Rants


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