… then I should be happy by now.
I am. At least if not totally.
I lost my chance to tell this male friend of mine how I feel about him before. That very same statement that should be the door of opportunity for me back then opened a few minutes ago.
I finally told him that I kinda like him… that’s why I am so affected by what is happening between him and a certain girl and whatever it is in connection with him. And that how I said it was underrated. Because I used kinda. Darn!
I do like him, or even went beyond it. But expounding or nurturing it is really foolish enough of me. I was as good as turned down of course.
But as I intended and planned this before (that never occurred back then) “professing” how I feel is to set me free and have my peace. I did have it now that it’s out of my chest. I never intend to win his heart, that would just be a bonus if ever. The worst of his reaction was to avoid me or lose the friendship that we have but it didn’t happened. Could it be that it didn’t happen because I told him over YM, and it’s unplanned? Still, he is the man that I thought he is back then, the person that I like… he may be a joker at times but he always will be a gentleman and a profound person specially when drunk! Hahaha!
I was a bit shaking when we are conversing over YM. And I’m a bit shaken until now. Today was such a long tiring day. I thought your reaction over it will keep me up and work on my illustrating stint. Now, I am sleepy. My body gave in to its natural circulation…
Thanks for just being yourself and taking this well. We’ll still be seeing each other and probably work together again someday. Hopefully, time will come we’ll both just be laughing at this.
I have my double stuffed Oreo pack and a cold glass of milk to “celebrate” this occasion. I am pretending there. They were more of my comfort companions at this time.
A toast (of icy cold milk) to those souls that need to be freed…
and the show must go on… moving on…